Pokemon I choose you!

Dear readers,

Pokemon got to catch them all? I would just like to win one gym battle. Yes I am a 40 year-old man Pokemon hunting. I admit it it is addicting. Its just another form of obsession. When i was a kid it was collecting all the Batman trading cards. Will I last with pokemon hunting? I don't know i like it so far. I am going to start MineCraft. My son plays it and I find it very interesting. Life has it's interesting turns and twists.

Things I have been less into i have to say is Twitter. Still use it but not huge for me. I ramble not sure who out there is reading this. My life could it be interesting to strangers? Like Big Brother or Survivor? Maybe the whole world would like to know how many times I pooped today.
I would tell you but i forgot to count.

Till next time... Keep it realish!

Your eyes burn into my soul.........

In the beginning....

    "Stop looking at the ground" and” Look people in the eye when you talk to them” words I grew up with every day.   My parents had good intentions wanted me to do well in the world. Also back then people had no understanding of psychological issues related to autism.  Myself I don’t like set labels let’s say I really understand autism. So many aspects to talk about as far as this blog post I look at eye contact. I have worked hard since adulthood to work through this issue of eye contact. Just a note not all countries is eye contact the polite thing to do. It is a western world thing. For family and very close friends it is much easier. With new people, strangers it can be difficult. When I started trying to fix this I did everything I could to avoid eye contact. It is so very uneasy. It makes this difficult. I remember job interviews I would force myself to look them in the eye. I would get so much anxiety that I would forget answers to questions I knew. I would some time get red faced from the tension in my head to do this and I would be asked if it was too warm in the office where I was interviewing. I have learned tricks to help like look at them but unfocused my eyes so I don’t see their eyes as well. I wish people knew how perfectly I hear them without looking them in the eyes. How much I care without constant eye contact. The most awkward part for me now is that when I don’t make eye contact with someone new I know what the other person is thinking. I know what they are wondering about me or our conversation. That is all for now. 

Dealing with the Light of your Candle.

Hello Readers,


   I know there are people that read my blog from all aound the world. I this morning have had my

sister on my mind. She died this year she was in her 40's. I remember getting the phone call. What a

 phone call to get really your father telling you your sister is dead. It has been many months and i am

still processing her loss. Life is so much like a candle. you dont know how tall it is so you dont know

 how long it will burn. You don't know if a gust of wind will blow it out. That light that we give to

the world can just disappear. Then the people around you live a little darker with out your light. So

take today and look at the lights around you.

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